To do or to don't

Hello everyone. So this week it seems as if my life has been in utter turmoil. I have been a very active student in study halls and getting my work done. Yay right? Right. Well now it seems that my wheel of turmoil has made its way back to the boy panel. I am yet again torn between three AMAZINGLY wonderful guys. One I have mentioned before-in a recent post actually- and two share an interest in me. One of those two, has asked me on a date to the Blue and Gold hockey game this weekend. He well they all seem super nice. I only know for sure about two of them. The other has been hearsay. Back to hockey guy. We've known each other before but we've never actually met until now. It's always been through other people we knew. With- let's call him football boy-football boy and I go back to like forever? I've liked him longer than I've known him and I'm to the point where I think I could possibly be in love with him. I'm not sure so I won't say anything like that just yet. Problem? Him. Simply put, he has his own demons he has to work out. He has an idea of what I feel for him I think, but again, not entirely sure. He can be a bit slow sometimes. We have plans to hang out this weekend as well. Who knows? Maybe fate will smile down upon me for once and grant this one wish of mine. Hmm well a girl can wish can't she? Which brings me to my last guy. Mr. Classroom. I can barely talk to this guy without fearing that I sound stupid or will blurt out my feelings as my rebellious mouth is known to do on occasion. I've tried dropping hints but I don't think they were all that effective. Case in point, I'm still single. Maybe he just isn't interested. I know there have been a few guys that were most assuredly #teamwhitegirl. He could be on that team. Who knows? Personally I'm rooting for football guy. As sweet as hockey guy is, I've heard too many questionable things about him and I'm not entirely sure if I'd like to go down that road just yet. I'm not THAT rebellious. And it's not like he's a bad boy or anything its just...I don't know. I've heard things and until they're cleared up he's a little low on the list. *sigh* whatever I decide, I just hope he stays around for a little while. As always I'll remember to Follow My Own (and remind you to follow yours) and let my Heart Speak. Goodnight everyone.

Procrastination at its finest

Sooo i'm supposed to be finishing my homework for my classes thereby concluding my first full week of school but it doesn't look like is gonna happen. There's this uber cute guy in one of my classes and man-oh-man! let me just say: DE-LISH! *sigh* I hope he's single. If I had a boyfriend, I would want it to be him. Just sayin'. Anyways, signing off. Gotta be productive...(right). Remember to always Follow Your Own and let your Heart Speak.

Competitors in Conflicts and Contests..

Sooooo, a few days ago, I had my first OFFICIAL college party. I have to say official because it's not really my first college party. (That's another story for another time.) Anyways it was absolutely AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!! I loved every second of it. There was a minor scare but it was resolved quickly. On a side note that's kinda completely off topic, I. Love. My. Team. They are absolutely amazing and I am so happy to be one of them. Back to the subject here. Competitors in Conflicts and Contests. So the majority of my team knows about this crush that I have on this guy. Give me a moment, let me daydream in lust for a bit....Back. He is just so cute! Anyways, I get into the dance and I'm looking around and I finally find him...with one of the last people I expected to see. In hindsight, I guess I'm not that surprised but it still stings a bit. This is where the contest comes in...How do I even compete with her? Should I even bother? I believe that all is fair in love and war, (when really they're not that different if you think about it) but why would I engage in a war if I already know I'm gonna lose? I mean how do I even know he's interested? So I just went with it. Later on, the conflict came and I was stuck in the middle of it. I'm just gonna go off on a tangent here and say, if you want to get back at someone for hurting you, or as part of some masochistic game y'all play, LEAVE ME OUT OF IT. I'm not one to get into a "lover's spat" or whatever you may see each other as. I don't know if he was being a saboteur or a prick but he didn't help my goal of the night. And later he asks if I'm still interested in him and of course I said yes. Not too sure if he was happy about that but I don't care. I didn't come for you and you knew that in the first place. I don't do leftovers. He knew who I was after and I wonder if he said anything to him...well enough of my rambling. Just wanted to keep you guys updated. Remember to always Follow Your Own and let your Heart Speak.

College Life

So I've almost finished half a full week of college classes and I must say, half of this high school did not prepare me for so i'm kinda testing it out as I go, and the other half is pretty much what I thought it would be. My schedule is pretty amazing and I have the opportunity to meet so many new people it's astounding! I have a few cuties that I've seen here and there and well, let's face it. I'm in need of a boyfriend....or cuddle-buddy really...*sigh* I've finished working on homework for now so I think i'm actually gonna hit the mattress and sleep for a bit. Busy day tomorrow learning new things and all that jazz and crockery and whatnot. The life of a college student isn't easy of course. You're constantly broke, your brain is crammed to capacity and then your professors expect you to cram more in -all in one class sitting mind you- and on top of that you either have a job and do a sport or have some other activities that make your days that much more bearable and your life that much more interesting. Maybe i'm wrong. Maybe I just didn't learn all of what was necessary. Maybe I did. All I can say is try your best always. Follow Your Own (you can never go wrong) and remember to always let your Heart Speak (it usually knows best). Goodnight everyone.